Well well well...I guess, even miraculously speaking, I'm very much likely to have failed in this battle against TEM 8 today. And I feel sad, now, 5 hours after that terrible exam.
Ironically, the first thing that had jumped out my head when I kinda realized the cruel cruel reality was that how ebarassed I would feel when people around me asking my performance of the exam. The scene of me telling others the surprsing answer would kill me. I suppose this humiliating episode would haunt me and torture me for a very very long time.
Sad. I hope that I can cover this feeling a little bit and restart on next week. There is, after all, another important test waiting for me in May which is pretty cruical to my translation career! Yes ,TEM 8 slap me hard in the face. Just now, Mom came back asking me how was everthing going with the test and I told her that it was not going well. She didn't give me a harsh time, at least not as much as what I have expected and as what she used to react. But the disappointment is right there on her face. I can feel it ,seriously, and that makes me even hate myself more and more!
I have grown up and supposedly have understood what I should do and what not , what is right and wrong.
I am supposed to be the one to take responsibilities as many as I could in enabling my parents to live a good and worryfree life. This is what a son should do, especially a son in my case.
So I decided to bear this punishment nontheless and start getting seriously.
For in realizing my dreams, there is a long way to go and for I cleary know that I am doing this not only for myself, but people that I love and need to make up for!
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